Listen, Friends. This is day two and I am posting. I think that right there proves I am a changed woman. But, seriously, earlier today the
annoying nag perfectionist in me was thinking “Well, since you actually had to post Day 1 of an October challenge on September 30th, it’s going to be all off now. You are going to be done on October 30th instead of 31st unless you skip a day. So maybe last night’s post should just count for today too.” And then my practical self said “And, the big deal about that is…?” Sheesh, calm down, Crazy. So, there. I will either be done on Oct 30 or I will post 32 days in a row. Big whoop. I didn’t think it was a good sign that I was finding ways to skip posting already on Day 2.
Getting it together is a much broader topic than I would have liked but I decided to do the challenge at the last minute so I didn’t have time to really think about what my future posts might be about. Choosing something broad gives me a little leeway there. I was wondering if I picked the right topic and then the same day, I had conversations with two of my friends where they used the phrase “get it together” and so I decided to take that as a sign and stop fretting about it.
The key to me finding some direction and establishing a sustainable routine has been my Bible study and prayer time. I usually don’t like devotionals because for one thing I’m overly leery of leaning on what other people say about God rather than finding out for myself what the Bible says about God and for another thing, I’ve never found one I liked. I tend to
be critical have high standards and I usually find the devotionals really cheesy or overly obvious. BUT. Awhile back I was at the thrift store and I found a brand new (still in the packaging- I guess someone wasn’t enthused about receiving that gift?) leather bound copy of Jesus Calling. I had heard a lot of hype online about it but I thought it was weird because she writes it in first-person as if God is speaking. That kind of creeped me out. But, it was cheap and in such good condition that I thought it was worth the risk. It really was. My concerns were set aside when I realized that the reason the devotionals are written that way is because she would write down what she felt God was saying to her during her quiet time. So, it’s sort of like she just shared her prayer journal.
So, every morning when I put Jack down for his nap between 9-10am, I go make my bed (yes, this habit has also caused me to start making my bed which is a whole new thing) and then I sit on it with my coffee and turn my phone on silent. Then I pray, read the devotional, write down the corresponding Bible verses (this helps me absorb them a little better), pray again and start my chores. It does not matter what chores I have for that day, I WILL spend my time with God before I do them. I missed some days a few weeks ago because my mom had a bad wreck on a horse and I went to help her. But, when I started back I just added one of the days I missed onto the current day and now I’m caught up again.
I wanted to share with everyone my quiet time tool and give you an idea of what it’s about in case you are looking for some structure in your Bible study. So now that there’s some background, I’ll explain more in-depth about what it’s been doing to my heart in a future post. For now, here are a few words that come up: slowing down, listening, embracing weakness, gentleness and peace.
By His grace, I have finally realized that I can’t get it together on my own. I need Him to put it together for me. And it takes being spiritually refreshed daily to have any chance at being who He made me to be. And I bet it does for you, too. So I encourage anyone who is trying to get it together to start by spending time listening to God every day.